demising

a failed source of entertainment. no outlet. no use. can't press deep enough. can't hide without false hope. expectant, denied. floods again. pause. hold breath. look inward. purposely dehydrating. (to quell release?) starved and self-starving. desired physical confirmation. confirmed. meek acts of destruction not fatal. side effect: irreversible blows, continued degeneration. further disappointment in lack of documentation. no expression. supersaturation. potential outburst suppressed by subconscious decorum. volatility inflated. stressed glass breaks. was room empty? decorum strikes again. stillness momentarily. cycles, again. braces. collapse and collect. again, again.

tiring circles. an end awaits. searching. prospects few. heightened fastidious sensibility. nothing satiates. silent plea continues despite self-suppression. communing: vague and impenetrable, two-way. quest continues with less vigor. what end will alleviate?

drivel, drivel, drivel. she endures without meaning.